Day 6 of my vacation.
Had a coworker friend call and rant about work for over 1.5 hours, even though I tried to tactfully change the subject, then steer it into interesting/positive/empowering things, and then eventually outright said “Please could we not stress obsessively about work anymore tonight, since I’m on vacation and I don’t want to go to bed with work drama on my mind.” No dice. Now I’m stressed about work again AND optionally keyed up due to friend being an inconsiderate turd. Sigh.
That was supposed to say emotionally keyed up. Not optionally. I think I’ll leave it. Typos, autocorrects, footprints on a beach.
I’m also all burned out because I sent three messages on OKCupid today to dudes who seemed interesting. Two non-responses. One responded minimally, I said something fairly uninteresting back, convo appears to be dead.
I’m swinging wildly back and forth between reasonable:
“Whatever, no big.”
“Some people take a while to respond. YOU take a while to respond. Don’t get pushy.”
“Maybe this isn’t a great time for them, or they only date brunettes with dogs, or whatever. Don’t second-guess. Everyone gets to make their own decisions.”
“This is good experience. You can’t get better without failing a few time.”
“I’m so old! The only dudes who will be interested are bitter divorcees with two kids and baggage, and they will think I am only a SLIGHTLY better option than their crazy ex-wife.”
“Someone who looks like me can’t expect responses from attractive people.”
“I don’t have the social skills to do this and never will.”
For a vacation day where I didn’t leave the house, today sure was socially draining.